In Weakness
Chronic disease has a way of taking you on a ride of emotional ups and downs in an intense "peek and dive" kind of way. Our bodies follow suite with that as the emotions aid either the progress or downfall. It can feel like battle all of its own to reign in our emotions and try to get things flowing in the right direction. There are a few real emotional times that stand out to me as we walked the darkest days of my illness. Losing the ability to do things was really devistating to me. I still struggle with this a bit because my body is not back to what is was before this journey of illness began. I really miss getting down on the floor and playing with my kids. Chasing them and running are still distant memories but I have hope of regaining these abilities. Early on, I remember trying to mustar up all my energy to make waffles for the family on Saturday for lunch. The pot that I was going to heat the milk in was too heavy for me to get out of the drawer. I couldn’t op...
